Friday, January 22, 2010
I DO ENVY AND JEALOUS LOVING COUPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOMETIMES I DO JEALOUS MY SISTERS AND FRIENDS!
CONGRATS THOSE WHO FOUND THEIR MR AND MS RIGHT AND HAVE
OWN HAPPINESS!
JIAYOU ALL! YAO XIN FU WOR~
11:45 AM
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!What a day man! I 'm so pissed off now blood boiling!Just now went to Yishun Dam for rounding, meet darren and his team...(they bbq there =.=" Stay there awhile, about 12 plus, we went to eat nasi lemak and went back to Yishun dam again.....Meeting mas's friends.(Through out the yishun dam I'm just still inside the car and played with i phone.)
After showing off the sound systems, about 1 plus we off to Toa Payoh to play billard. We reached there about 230 and it closed at 3. So while they deciding where to head to, I'm too tired so i asked mas to send me back KB first...
I expected he will be worry for me as I go to walks up alone and tot he will send me to my house. I'm just too navie I know he would nv do it automatily unless he is ask to do so and he will do it unwillingly. Well in the end, i asked him " so I 'm going up myself!" No choice, in the end he do it unwillingly!Send me to lift and passed me the hse key...
--->Is wrong to ask my bf to fetch me back home in the mid of the night?Am I too navie? I know he not this type of person and I pins so much hope on him. I'm was so pissed off! I couldnt decide should i go back home stay or go his hse?!!!!!!!Really damn angry!But stupid foolish monkey me still went back to his hse.Haix!I'm so angry with myself that I could not angry him for long!I'm so useless!Somtimes it isnt my faults and everything seem to turn out to be my faults?! WHY?!Now ... I started to lose faith in myself...he couldnt shows me enough love, care and concern. I start to think what am I to him? how much I stand?My minds run wild at times cos I dun feel secure.=(I feel I'm being treated for granted at times.
------> Just what is important guys? is it gf or friends?
I Hate it!Hate Myself!I dunno what else i can do le...haix i had tried all sort of ways but dun seem help...
When he is serious and nice i do loves him lots!I also appreciated for those things he had done for me... how much I wish times can just stop oways at the great moments.
Ni hai ai wo ma?
-This is our second chance i had done a lots and changed a lots I did my best le... if it isnt good enough i'm sorry...
(Ai yi ge ren hao nan!) SNG JIAN WEN THOMAS!
Wo hen lei le... wo bu xiang zai wan cai cai de you xi le!
( No more guessing game)
Thank there is blog if not I'm really dun neo where can I share my troubles!
=) I'm feeling much better le!=)
LOH MIN'ER JIAYOU!JIAYOU!
-I have to remind myself "jiayou"
no more crybaby!Strong!
JUST WHAT LOVE?=)
TRUST?
CARE?
LOVE?
COMCERN?
THOUGHT?
GENTLE?
RESPECT?
FORGIVING?
GIVING IN?
EFFORT?
APPRECIATIVE?
dear do we have all this?
11:08 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009
When I'm down who knows? who the one for me?
10:26 PM
What for breakfast today?
rice? porridge? bread?
answer: none but tears of salt and diappointment.
mon to wed: he after work he went out with friends and i'm all alone.
thurs to sunday: morning work-noon went out with his friends.
thurs nite he dota i sleep.
friday nite sometime go out catch a movie and went for foods with friends together if not he dota i sleep.
saturday nite go out with friends together.
sunday nite go out with friends together.
where times for me? or you mean the times we sleep together is count as pei me?
am I the one being unreasonable or theone attitude?
am I wrong to ask for more time being with me?
just what wrong? what happen? why cant we be like other couples?
friends play and enjoyment is it really that more important?
then what am I to you?
I tried to make noise and quarrel to get attentions.
I tried to talk in a nice manner but you also werent serious.
I tried and tried but it all fail.
I'm a failure in love because of you.
Just what is a relationship to you?
what does a gf mean to you?
what is the role of a bf?
Tell me can?I'm tired of guessing.
I just seem to not able to enter to yyour world.
All my love hope and wish seem to be fail.
I'm tired =(
Through my experience, I promise to be strong and never shed a tears for guy.
But will am I still so weak? why is it you?
You always make me lost myself make me weak.
My love seem to be lost.... I cant be moving it alone
I'm tired...
I'm totally down...
BUT I'm already cant stop myself for falling deeper.........................................................................................
10:04 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
How about tonight?
8:32 PM
=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(=( =(=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(
It's ours day TODAY !(18-10)Today is our 1st anniversary after patch. Have you forgotten?
will it be a surprising one or a disappointing one?
more on disappointing ba...
you were busy working and had never tell my your plan about today and i hinted you.
Well..........so I acted blur and mute too.
very disappointed indeed.
Although add up the years that we had been together... our anniversary shouldn't be celebrated? be remember?
shouldn't it be a memorable day filled with love?
why can't we like other couples? so loving and so sweet.
Is it the time we spend together were too long; everyday ,that why we don't feel the important of each other?
Human will only treasure after they lost.I don't want that to happen again.
I don't need flower, don't need gift your little actions will touch me.
Cause you meant a lots to me.
Totally disappointed...=(
Totally neglected....=(
Hao nan guo wor...=(
BGR already no anniversary what will happen next?=(
(dear if you happen to see this i don't mean anything, i didn't blame you cause I know you busy working but really kinda disappointed)
8:08 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
This is the only place where Linda can pour out all her troubles.
Linda is so envy
She was so envy of her girlfriends around her.
She envy that their BF are gentle towards them.
She envy that their BF are so caring and concern about them.
She envy that their BF are always there for them.
She envy that their BF never neglect them even in big group outing.
She envy envy envy envy....!!!
But he will never understand.
Linda's wish
He will talks to her more.
He will care and concern her more.
(They meet everyday but the time they talk are less than 50 sentences per day, and there are no sms through out the day even in his free time, could you imagine?!)- Linda is totally upset! =(
He will love her more.
She need security!
(She wondering and her mind run wild!)
He will be more gentle to her. (No more attitude, it hurts! What the points of apologized when she already hurt?)
He will be more understanding towards her.(Have he ever though what she wamts?)
He will always be there for her no matter what.
He will accompany her more.(There lots of places and things she wish her BF will go and do with her, but she knows it will never happen.)
He will never neglect her again. (Possible?! Hahas )
After years of together, she doesn't deserve more understanding, love, care and concern ?
Linda was totally upset for the past three days!
He will never knows and understands words and small actions of his can hurt her so much.........................................................................................................................................
She break down into tears.
Does he know?
Hahas, he will never know.
BUT
LINDA JUST SIMPLY LOVE HIM!
DOES HE STILL REMEMBER THE DAY?
I DOUBT SO =)
NO MORE CRYBABY
NO MORE TEARS
MIN'ER JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!
=)
9:31 PM
