Friday, January 22, 2010
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!What a day man! I 'm so pissed off now blood boiling!Just now went to Yishun Dam for rounding, meet darren and his team...(they bbq there =.=" Stay there awhile, about 12 plus, we went to eat nasi lemak and went back to Yishun dam again.....Meeting mas's friends.(Through out the yishun dam I'm just still inside the car and played with i phone.)
After showing off the sound systems, about 1 plus we off to Toa Payoh to play billard. We reached there about 230 and it closed at 3. So while they deciding where to head to, I'm too tired so i asked mas to send me back KB first...
I expected he will be worry for me as I go to walks up alone and tot he will send me to my house. I'm just too navie I know he would nv do it automatily unless he is ask to do so and he will do it unwillingly. Well in the end, i asked him " so I 'm going up myself!" No choice, in the end he do it unwillingly!Send me to lift and passed me the hse key...
--->Is wrong to ask my bf to fetch me back home in the mid of the night?Am I too navie? I know he not this type of person and I pins so much hope on him. I'm was so pissed off! I couldnt decide should i go back home stay or go his hse?!!!!!!!Really damn angry!But stupid foolish monkey me still went back to his hse.Haix!I'm so angry with myself that I could not angry him for long!I'm so useless!Somtimes it isnt my faults and everything seem to turn out to be my faults?! WHY?!Now ... I started to lose faith in myself...he couldnt shows me enough love, care and concern. I start to think what am I to him? how much I stand?My minds run wild at times cos I dun feel secure.=(I feel I'm being treated for granted at times.
------> Just what is important guys? is it gf or friends?
I Hate it!Hate Myself!I dunno what else i can do le...haix i had tried all sort of ways but dun seem help...
When he is serious and nice i do loves him lots!I also appreciated for those things he had done for me... how much I wish times can just stop oways at the great moments.
Ni hai ai wo ma?
-This is our second chance i had done a lots and changed a lots I did my best le... if it isnt good enough i'm sorry...
(Ai yi ge ren hao nan!) SNG JIAN WEN THOMAS!
Wo hen lei le... wo bu xiang zai wan cai cai de you xi le!
( No more guessing game)
Thank there is blog if not I'm really dun neo where can I share my troubles!
=) I'm feeling much better le!=)
LOH MIN'ER JIAYOU!JIAYOU!
-I have to remind myself "jiayou"
no more crybaby!Strong!
JUST WHAT LOVE?=)
TRUST?
CARE?
LOVE?
COMCERN?
THOUGHT?
GENTLE?
RESPECT?
FORGIVING?
GIVING IN?
EFFORT?
APPRECIATIVE?
dear do we have all this?
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